Writing in Chinese gives me more room to express ideas deeply. English, on the other hand, forces me to be concise, precise, and logical. I want to get better at writing in both languages.

But I spent too much time improving the Chinese blog’s layout and design. I should have focused more on the content itself.

The lesson is simple: focus on the real work. Stop getting distracted by superficial improvements and start my own business as soon as possible.

My MRR is still zero. That’s the real problem I need to solve.

Agree with that. I want to dive deep into this space and start building what I actually want to see exist.

I’m still exploring ideas for my next side project, but building a focused website or web app feels like the quickest, most practical way to get started and test things in public.

Past years are like a dream. Time to start like a Brand New Day.

I restarted this blog, redesigned its layout, and migrated it from GitHub Pages to Cloudflare Pages, all with the help of an AI agent. Without that help, this work might have taken several days. There were many unexpected bugs and configuration problems, and I have experienced that kind of painful process more than once. This time, it took only about two hours, without me writing any code, and the result was genuinely satisfying.

I feel excited, but also humble, about learning how to discover real market needs and solve them effectively with AI—or whatever tools work best.

More importantly, it reminds me that I must build my own business.

It’s an urgency.

Let’s ship! 🚀

The essence of Personal Mastery is the continuous generation and maintenance of what he called “creative tension”.

In plain words, we must have goals, challenges, and continue to push ourselves forward. To clarify what is truly important, focus and refocus the goal vision as it is always in the mind, so that it enters the subconscious mind to automatically guide action.

There is a broader and deeper ambition and mission behind the vision, which supports perseverance in the face of difficulties and obstacles.

At the same time, we also face and see the objective reality, and the GAP between the two is inconsistent, as the power source to push ourselves forward (creative tension).

Be careful to distinguish between creative tension and emotional tension, to avoid the latter eroding the vision and leading to mediocrity. Also beware of structural conflict, the perception of powerlessness or unworthiness.

So, in a nutshell, it’s two things: commitment to vision + commitment to truth.

Transcendence, mastery, refers to a skillful and attained mastery, which is followed by continuous and lifelong cultivation.

Inspired by this, I began to face reality, examine reality, including the past, present and future reality, and clarify the context of cause and effect. I saw that for a long time, I was always running away from my heart, from the really difficult but valuable things, without caring for the vision, there were always some bad habits to interrupt myself, or immerse myself in the so-called situation.

I can confirm that this is really something I enjoy, because programming involves two main characteristics: determinism and creativity.

Some days are basically programmed all day, only in this way, can break through the card points that have been repeated before.

In the middle of many ambiguous, similar and no clear understanding of the concept, at any time to check GPT and Wenxin dialogue, are basically clear.

I felt like I was finally getting in the door and starting to see things from a developer’s perspective.

It’s a little misshape of doing things as a tech startup. After all, you don’t have a feasible strategy, nor ability to build a thriving and promising business.

I believe it will boost my writing and the related work from a brand new start.

Besides, I devote my whole enthusiasm into the customization work, during which without awareness of time past by, nearly no eat, sleep, bathroom, just do the code and fix coming from my mind one by one, seemingly never bored with it.

That reassures me that I love doing coding, designing and creating staff. The indie hacker work suspended for the last few months. I can’t give it up. Now it’s time to restart.

I’ve restarted my learning by conducting real projects. From an article I try to learn how to crawl SEC 10-K files through its API by using python. Wish a good start.

For me, I still hadn’t defeated the monster inside of myself. It continued to destroy myself by wasting bulk of time. Sleeping late, procrastinating what really needed to do, playing computer games… were bad habits that still existed.

I will fight for my truly freedom and inner peace from now on. Writing is a weapon. I will continue writing about my progress and thoughts on indie hacker and related staff in this place.

It’s a shame to be weak and defeated if you have already known and experienced what is the RIGHT way.

I have ambivalent feeling on it, and turn a little away from it.

Now it may be the time to go back. It’s still a conduct that needs my endeavor to survive.